I’m back from yet another break from blogging. In all honesty, I just haven’t had the motivation. This last couple of months I can’t say I’ve been at my best. Not to be all dramatic, but I haven’t really been feeling like myself. I think we all go through it, especially Mums. We kinda lose our way from time to time and forget who we are. I lost quite a bit of my sense of self-worth and I’d like it back! Sitting around feeling sorry for myself won’t help. It’s time to be pro-active. Don’t worry, it’s not all been bad though. I have to admit too, that sometimes I just don’t have the energy to write after dealing with toddler tantrums and driving around all day!
So as far as self-worth goes, it’s how you view yourself. It’s what value you hold yourself at. It’s how YOU see yourself, not how the world see’s you. But it’s easy to blame the world instead of accepting that you need to make some mental changes. It’s easier to be the victim. It’s harder to take ownership. I’m lucky I at least know the difference and can snap myself out of it. I’m my own worst enemy. I spend most of my day listing all the things I’m doing wrong when I should really be being kinder to myself.
Not everything is about looks but one of the first things I’d like to do is to get back into shape. I know I promised to start writing about my weight-loss journey again and I didn’t hold myself accountable. I didn’t keep up with it. The truth is, I was hiding from my blog because I hadn’t lost any weight. I hadn’t even really tried to. My relationship with food is rather unhealthy and don’t listen to what other vegans tell you. Vegan food is NOT healthy unless you’re buying fresh produce and making your own meal from scratch. I haven’t been doing that for myself (I do it for the kids because naturally, I love them more than I love myself haha). So that’s another change I’d like to make. Simple changes. Eat right, exercise more often. Start feeling better.
Right now I’m in a place where I feel stuck. Being a stay-at-home mum is great because I am able to be there for my babies all the time, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t in the stay-at-home mum rut that I know we all get in from time to time. Being in better shape and finding a new adventure would be perfect for me right now. That’s pretty much all that’s bothering me. Other than that, I’m really happy. When I say adventure, I don’t mean holiday/vacation (Although, that would be awesome because I kinda need one). I mean, new job/career. A new form of income. Maybe something that gets me out of the house and lets me be ME for a few hours. Anyway, stay tuned on that. Maybe I can stop being such a little weakling and actually pursue my photography? Just an idea lol.
Finally, I would like to keep up with blogging. I do enjoy it and every time I run away from it, I do feel bad. I don’t suspect that many people read my blog. I don’t check my stats. I don’t really care. Just like on social media. People OBSESS with their numbers. I’m just not bothered by it all. I do things for me. I write for me, and if it interests or helps anyone along the way, then awesome. Writing helps clear my mind. I enjoy it. So come on, Laura.
I’d give a quick update on my life but I don’t think there’s much to tell. I have a lot to write about the children, especially Abbey, but that can wait for a separate post. It would make this post HUGEEEEE! I’m still with my boyfriend. He’s coming to visit me in a couple of weeks and I’m excited!!! My horse is still going strong. I’m going to write about her soon too. So yep, I’m sure I’ll think of something by the next post.
Okay, it’s time to go. My toddler is due to wake up from her nap soon and I want to go smother myself in coconut oil (I use it on my hair, teeth, and skin because it’s probably one of the best things ever).
So, Until next time (Which won’t be long, I promise).